A Fresh New Start……

Where do I begin?  The question I have been asking myself…….blogging feels foreign to me, where do you draw the line, it is almost like a balancing act, however this is the year I face my challenge. I have been thinking about blogging about this for a very long time. The last couple of years have been very difficult for me.  Let me begin by saying that I am a “mommy’s girl”, my mom was my best friend, my confidant, my sounding board and my go to person.  My mom was a very strong women, self sufficient, driven and a women of faith. About two years ago life seemed perfect and secure as it seems most days. Then, my mom started feeling ill, then the multiple doctors appointments began along with testing, more testing, uncertainty and fear. The fears became a reality as these simple words were spoken, “you have cancer”. It went from a normal everyday life to a fight against cancer. With faith as our sword and God as our savior we faced our battle head on with the comfort of knowing we were not alone. A fight that many of you have experienced through family, friends, and  or acquaintances. Her diagnosis came a day shy of her 52nd birthday. We spent the day of her birthday laughing, cuddling, eating tons of cake and ice cream ( her favorite) until it hurt and talking about simple things in life.  The doctors gave her four weeks and you can not imagine the disbelief, pain, regrets, that go through your mind…..in that moment you realize what is truly important in life. My mom Ines lost her fight on May 27th 2008. So many of you were comforting, supportive, and a blessing to me and my family words could never express my gratitude, even until this day. Many of you may be asking why talk of this now? It has taken me a very long time to be able to talk about this let alone share it with others. So, with this I start a new year with great appreciation for life, friends, family and faith. I don’t have many photos of me and my mom, but I leave you with the one I do have of us celebrating her 52nd birthday that my oldest daughter took of us.

I also would like to thank my friend Scarlett Lillian whose given me the courage to share a little about myself…